Late Night Thoughts.

I don't normally get too deep with my feelings and what I am thinking at the moment with my blog, I mainly use it as a way for me to keep track of all the highlights in my life and also to share it with a few close friends and family. Right now though, I may share a little more than usual because I don't want to forget this moment. 

It is 10 p.m. on a Sunday night. Sundays are usually very lazy for us because we are exhausted from the day. Today was a little extra exhausting for us. Sean had the opportunity to speak to our church this Sunday. He usually gets this opportunity once a month. He loves the chance to share God's Word. This morning he got the news that his Uncle Buck passed away from a massive heart attack. He found me after the first service and I could tell he was holding back the tears. I wasn't holding back, they were flowing right out of me. I've always loved Uncle Buck. If it wasn't for him, Sean probably would of never had the opportunity to go to college in Springfield and meet me. He helped Sean get there financially which had an eternal impact on his life and mine. So thankful he knows the Lord and is with Him now. That gives us peace. Sean will be flying home Tuesday to do the funeral and I just pray the Lord uses him to reach those who need God most.

It is quiet right now. All I can hear is Drew and Bailey snoring away, they sound like two little piggies. I love it. Sean passed out early tonight, I can tell he was just emotionally exhausted. He is worried about his mom. She is also in the hospital with health issues right now. 

Drew was the last to fall asleep and I had to tickle her belly which is our usual bed time routine. Sean laughs at me and says she has me wrapped around her little finger. She does, but I'm cherishing every stubborn and bratty moment with that child. She is unique in her ways. I love her. Right before Reagan fell asleep she said, "thanks for being such a good Mom to me". That really fed my soul. I needed to hear that tonight. She has a way of lifting my spirits, she is precious. I just needed to write down this moment to remember how I'm feeling right now. Blessed. I can't believe we have been in Vacaville for 2 years now and I can't believe Reagan is going to summer camp by herself this summer and I'm shocked Drew is going to be 3! What!!! Bailey is still in that young stage where I can hug and kiss him in public and he doesn't care. I'm afraid of when that all ends. Maybe it won't, for now he is my little man. We went on a date to see Alice and Wonderland Friday night and he opened my car door after the movie, it was adorable. I never want to forget that moment. I hope he does that for his wife one day.

I guess what I'm trying to express in my own confusing way is that I feel so blessed to have been given this opportunity to raise these kids with Sean. It is passing us by so quickly and I don't want to get so busy that I forget to cherish these moments. Life is too precious to let little things get in the way. Thank you Lord for this gift!

Good Night.